Tuesday 7/26/16 Session #1 of 20 Heather Morrison
BEFORE
Rate:
Aliveness - 5-6
Presence: 5
emotional state: 6-7
Comment on specifics in terms of awareness of your
physical, ie energy level tension in body - I am wound up and a bit tense. I just found out that my mom has had vertigo for a few days (she's 83) and with short notice, will take her to the dr's appointment.
emotional/feelings: feeling resentful - I feel like it's the lack of her self-care impacting me. She often waits til the end of the day or right before she needs something that she could have planned for. Feeling anxious about how not going to work impacts my relationship with boss - disrupts a planned meeting I had.
mental states, inner dialog, resistance - I actually really want to do the TRE. Resisted doing it earlier because I was hungry and tired after work and 1 hr commute home. My mental dialog is tense and a harsh. But also mixed with that cool felling that I don't have to go into my job tomorrow.
AFTER
Body / vibrations - vibrations come easily. they range from large waves to smaller waves. I noticed that there was a kind of rhythm and pattern that repeated in my pelvis and hips - sort of a circular - like the infinity sign.
Ego defense or thoughts - thoughts were scattered and racing somewhat but that dropped away as I shook.
Emotional response - I feel a lot calmer and quite tired; I still feel a littler resentful.
Rate sense aliveness etc - energy is low but more grounded too after shaking.
LATER (that day or next day): Wed:
Comment on what noticed: I felt very relaxed after TRE, my thoughts slowed down a lot; realized how tired I was. I fell asleep during "rest" after TRE. (But got up so I could make journal entry). I fell asleep quickly and slept deeply until about 4:40a but was able to go back to sleep till my alarm went off at 6:30a. Sleeping all the way through the night is not something I do much any more.
I am aware that that my period is due in 1-3 days. PMS for me can include, increased hunger, cravings for sugar and carbs, intense moods; mood swings (a little hyper "up" and cranky and down), sometimes a tight lower back, "world is ending".
Journal summary - none since this is #1
(to do end of every 5 sessions)
I am most aware of:
Changes I am noticing in my vibrations, my emotional sate, my ego strength, my life:
Questions that I have about my experience are:
How do you know are ready to begin TRE to others?
