Journal 7/30/16
12:23 PM - 1:18 PM (20 min of tremoring + journaling)
Session Date (Click the cell below, and then click the arrow button to select a date from the calendar.) July 28, 2016
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Before TRE Session
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| Sense of aliveness | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐ 6 ☐X 7 ☐ 8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 7 |
| Sense of presence | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐ 6 ☐x 7 ☐ 8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 7 |
| Emotional state | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐x 6 ☐ 7 ☐ 8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 6 |
During TRE Session
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| Body experiences/tremors |
Tremored - about 20 minutes. Tremors were mostly small some large body tremors. Some neck releasing jerks; some rhythic upper chest contractions. Tried with eyes open and closed. Prefer closed as it feels like such an internal experience to me. Took periodic rests. Noticed tingling feeling (which I like) mostly on my skin and the relaxation in belly and limbs.
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| Ego defense and thought |
No resistance prior to starting. About 5 minutes in felt a little bit like "only 5 min in..." but that feeling went away and I just went with it. I enjoy the sensation of shaking.
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After TRE Session
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| Sense of aliveness | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐ 6 ☐ 7 ☐x 8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 8 |
| Sense of presence | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐ 6 ☐ 7 ☐ x8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 8 |
| Emotional state | ☐1 ☐ 2 ☐ 3 ☐ 4 ☐ 5 ☐ 6 ☐ 7 x☐ 8 ☐ 9 ☐ 10 = 8 |
Notes about today’s session
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Good session. Quiet. It stimulated some thoughts so I propped up some pillows on my belly and wrote while shaking. Wondered if some of my impulses to talk, my physical fussiness (I often will move seats in a movie theater; I will fuss with objects, often keep trying to improve a spreadsheet at work etc) - if some of that is unreleased / trapped energy and perhaps am driven a little bit my brain stem to release it in these ways.
I've been shaking since last August - fairly regularly though it had dropped of in regularity and length a few months before Mod 1. But I had noticed it helped smoothed out my reactivity - emotionally, physically (startle a lot less); and just a kind of quieter baseline. I'm looking to getting even more in my body. I talked some about self care. I've pushed self care away for most of my life. When I take care of myself it's often more of a last resort - not the first resort. Also, had this idea that I've had a lot of energy around eating in the sense - what would be fun to eat; what's supposed to be good for me - how much yaddah yaddah. Most of my life, eating, food, wt are struggles. It occurred to me that what if I what I chose to eat and how were based on how alive it made me feel - before/during/after - and let that me my guide. It seems like a grounded way to eat (from the inside out) - literally; it appeals to my sense of novelty. Every meal is a kind of adventure "will this make me feel alive and how much?" and if not, don't eat it. |
Trainer notes
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